A COG IN THE WHEEL....

 20 july 2021

It was long back 

when i decided to stand on my feet

Coz i had to build my identity 

Coz i had to do something creative 

Coz i wanted to utilize my education 

Coz i wanted to define my destination 

Coz i wanted to network 

Coz i wanted to know my worth

Coz i wanted to fulfil my desire

Coz i wanted to ignite the fire

fire to hone my skills 

To grow ,to learn and to earn

The desire was fulfilled 

The goals were achieved 

but then it became a never ending race

And i became a cog in the wheel

Important, very cruial for the machine 

But didn't have time even to lubricate my 

reels.

Years rolled by and life moved on

I could not find a moment to spend on,

to repair my losses 

to look after my tresses

to tend my skin

to live as a queen

to have some moments of my own

to pause for my groans

Coz the cog  is indispensable for the wheel 

Without whom the machine couldn't run

Without whom nobody could have fun

Thus i started going on with the flow

Adapting and adopting 

All that had to be done

To pretend, to show 

That i had been able to manage the two worlds

But one day life came to a stand still

I tried to have my will

I tried to look at the past

I tried to fulfil the unfulfilled 

I tried to relax

I tried to fill the gaps

Soon ennui overcame me

And i no more wanted to be free

I wanted once again to run the machine 

To get rid of slow life

To be a good wife

Who would not worry a lot

About the messed up things

To be a mother who 

Would not supervise 

each and every move

And leave the kids on their own

To be active and alive

To work tirelessly and 

once again become  a cog in the wheel.